Lindsey Lohan Essays

The hard pAArtying former actress recently wrote an essay for the just-released coffee table book on Marilyn Monroe, Marilyn: Intimate Exposures, and, as to be expected, she mainly uses the icon as a nearly transparent veil to once again justify her behavior and blame everyone else for her problems!

I was twelve and watching the film “Niagara” over and over again when I was shooting The Parent Trap. I didn’t refer to it as film noir then. I just thought it was dark and full of emotion. Marilyn was the beautiful bad girl in that tight, rose-colored dress. The character she played was strong and taking control, which I unconsciously knew at that young age was a necessary quality for a woman. I had seen what my mother, whom I love, had gone through with my father. She, I and my brother Michael, my sister Aliana, and my youngest brother Dakota were in a constant state of uncertainty. I would have to put myself between him and my siblings.

I can understand the photographer Bernard of Hollywood’s statement, “it took a superhuman effort to be Marilyn.” I identify. Without any real family to come home to and no education, Marilyn managed to have her dream. The dream of a little girl looking out of an orphanage window at the RKO sign, and promising herself, “There must be thousands of girls sitting alone like me, dreaming of becoming a movie star. But I’m not going to worry about them. I’m dreaming the hardest.”

People in their mind have created who I am and act as if there is no real person inside of me. Just like Marilyn, who created the blond sex goddess on camera…. Marilyn never wanted to be a celebrity. Neither do I. I started working in commercials, when I was three. I always wanted to be in great films. I had always thought that movie stars were in films that would last forever in your mind. But now the films don’t. I don’t want to be remembered as someone who just wanted to be photographed, who goes out at night ,and gets in trouble. Look, I never had a normal high school life. I was home schooled for two years, never had a high school prom or went to college. I was just sort of acting out that period of time I never had, and I made some bad choices. So all the tabloids, just like Marilyn, keep harping on my mistakes. Heath Ledger once said to me, “It’s build you up to knock you down and that’s all it is. And you just have to see if you can stand through it.”

Marilyn said she had no foundation. But she said she was really working on it. I’ve been trying to do the same thing. But sometimes a relationship doesn’t work out like you’d hoped. The tabloids don’t give you a chance. They don’t want to know who you are inside. If everything’s OK with you, who wants to hear about it? I believe in myself and I’m a good actress.

It took time for Marilyn to be taken seriously as an actress. She risked everything and broke her contract with FOX Studios, demanded more money, approval of directors, better scripts, more respect ,and formed Marilyn Monroe Productions. That was really empowering for a woman in the ‘50s. Marilyn was not a victim. She took control. And we remember her, 50 years later, for her “great films.”

Instead of partying in France and Milan and writing essays on why everyone should be nice to her, she should be doing her community service!

Just saying!

[Image via WENN.]

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Director Paul Schrader found something redeeming — and quite like Marilyn Monroe — in the hot mess that is Lindsay Lohan.

The director wrote an essay for Film Comment about Lohan's organic on-screen believability, which he discovered while filming the indie thriller, "The Canyons," due in theaters in August.

Scrader said:

"I think Lohan has more natural acting talent than Monroe did, but, like Monroe, her weakness is her inability to fake it. She feels she must be experiencing an emotion in order to play it. This leads to all sorts of emotional turmoil, not to mention on-set delays and melodrama. It also leads, when the gods smile, to movie magic. Monroe had the same affliction. They live large, both in life and on screen. This is an essential part of what draws viewers to them."

Their magnetism is a product of their chaos, he explained.

"We sense that the actress is not performing, that we are watching life itself. We call them 'troubled,' 'tormented,' 'train wrecks' — but we can't turn away."

Schrader picked up on other ways the starlets are alike while reading James Goode's book, "The Making of the Misfits," a behind-the-scenes chronicle of the production of a 1961 drama starring Monroe.

"Tardiness, unpredictability, tantrums, absences, neediness, psychoframa — yes, all that, but something more," Schrader said, "that thing you can't take your eyes off of, that magic, that mystery."

He also pointed out what makes them different —namely the 50 years that separate them — and held the media partly responsible for Lohan's endless supply of crazy.

Lastly, he gives the poor girl some credit:

"It's difficult to maintain self-discipline in a world of easy gratification," Schrader said of a celebrity environment that took shape post-Monroe. "It must be exhausting."

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